My Thoughts and Ideals

I really need to check this more.

Fuck stupid flings that mess up your emotions. Especially when they're with close friends.

Let me go drill my skull to a tree, be back in a few.

Yesterday, Jessika came home. She lives around five miles from me.

Last night we were talking on IM, and around 12:30 I snuck out of my house and walked to Jessika's house. It took me about an hour and a half to get to her house, but it was a nice little jog/walk.

I hung out with her and her roommate at her house for about an hour, watching Scarred and giving relationship advice. 

It was nice to see her, I haven't in about a month but we've talked a lot.

At about 3 AM I left her house, and instead of running I just walked home. I got home at 5.

That was the most beautiful night I've ever seen. The rising sun draped it's partial light against the rolling clouds, and in patches of the sky I could see the stars.

I just thought of how much I loved my friends, loved life, and other things.

I saw a shooting star, too. At first I thought it was dumb and childish to do such a thing, but I still wished upon it. Maybe it's dumb to do, but at least I can be hopeful for what I wished for. Which was a happy and content life.

I'm actually a pretty comical person. But as of late I guess I've been thinking a lot more, as I've said before. I guess I'm like Shrek. I'm an onion, I have layers! And only a few people will see the deepest of those.

The only regret I had that night was that the rest of the world was too busy sleeping to witness the sheer beauty that I did. I hope I'll never forget that sky or those emotions.

This is my first journal entry. I pretty much got a livejournal because Jessika had one, but she doesn't really check it. So here I am. Doo-dee-doo.

So here goes my journal.

The last few days I've been thinking about a lot of things, like what I want to do with my life and how I'm going to be happy. I've been more able to appreciate life by living life as it comes by. I don't want school to start, I want it to be like this forever. Right now I have so many people that understand the way I feel.

I've learned more life lessons then I ever could from school by just thinking about things in a more logical sense, with the more time I have to myself. School just teaches me stuff I need to get by.

I think I just need to focus on what I really want, these summers can be the most decisive times in my life.

Whatever, I still need to think more.